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Well I've done it again. I'm sorry I keep switching livejournal names, but hopefully this one will last a while. If I like you and your journal, I'll comment you with my new name. don't forget to add the new myspace. |
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Looking back on '06, really looking back, is just absolutely shocking. If you would've told me two years ago that I would end up madly in love, addicted to cocaine, and practically conjoined at the hip with another girl, I would've told you that you needed medical attention. I never used to believe in love, I hated "hard drugs", and I hate girls. Well, things change. I think that's what I learned this year. Nothing is impossible, as much as we think they are sometimes. I never would've thought I'd be in rehab twice in one year, especially on Christmas. I've seen so many people explain their shitty dispositions about Christmas, and I just want to strangle someone. Not that my excuse is any better, I brought it on myself, but everyone was with their families, and it was your choice to argue with them. Everyone is complaining that their laptops, and $800 jackets aren't good enough. You know what I got for Christmas? I got a PB&J sandwich and some gummy bears. I got an hour-long visit with my mother, and I got horrible doubts that when I came home, my best friend would have forgotten about me, and my boyfriend would have cheated on me. Please just learn to be grateful. This year I've learned that things can get drastic and extreme. I've learned to trust people, and I've learned to trust myself. I've learned that things have to get worse before they can ever get better. I've learned that you can't toy with people's emotions because karma really is a bitch. I've learned that, yes, when it comes down to it, all you really have is yourself, but it doesn't always have to be like that. I've learned that you don't need four million friends, and you don't have to change who you are for people to love you again. I've learned that it's okay to look in the mirror and know that you have a boyfriend who loves you and a best friend that would kill for you. I've learned that opening yourself up to people is okay, and that not everyone is out to get you. I have very high hopes for 2007. I have high hopes for myself and my future. Whether or not I use cocaine doesn't change any of that. I can still be a good person if I slip up a few times, but cocaine isn't everything. That's what I learned. If I had to tell the world one thing before I was able to die, I'd say that. Cocaine isn't everything. Drugs aren't everything. Partying isn't everything. It's all just temporary. Sure, it's fun. It was my fucking life this year. But it's not everything. It won't solve all your problems. It won't change whatever you're running from. It just numbs everything. It's a mask on your life, really. I'm going to party, and I'm going to have fun, but that's not all I'm going to do anymore. I'm better than that. Everyone's better than that. That's what I learned. You can't sell yourself short because you're perfect. Everyone's perfect. |
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