dissappointed @ 2007-01-15T22:09:00

2007-01-16T03:09:55Z

amylovedrug
amylovedrug
amylovedrug

dissappointed @ 2007-01-15T00:29:00

2007-01-15T05:31:35Z

Well I've done it again. I'm sorry I keep switching livejournal names, but hopefully this one will last a while. If I like you and your journal, I'll comment you with my new name.

don't forget to add the new myspace.

dissappointed @ 2007-01-08T23:13:00

2007-01-09T04:36:47Z

Please give me feedback, I'm entering these into a show, and I need to select 5-8. Which ones are the best? Oh, there is no editing done, and please don't try to take my pictures because they're all dated, tagged, and copywrited, thanks!

Just read this one, I love all the pictures.

2006-12-30T18:29:54Z

Looking back on '06, really looking back, is just absolutely shocking. If you would've told me two years ago that I would end up madly in love, addicted to cocaine, and practically conjoined at the hip with another girl, I would've told you that you needed medical attention. I never used to believe in love, I hated "hard drugs", and I hate girls. Well, things change. I think that's what I learned this year. Nothing is impossible, as much as we think they are sometimes. I never would've thought I'd be in rehab twice in one year, especially on Christmas. I've seen so many people explain their shitty dispositions about Christmas, and I just want to strangle someone. Not that my excuse is any better, I brought it on myself, but everyone was with their families, and it was your choice to argue with them. Everyone is complaining that their laptops, and $800 jackets aren't good enough. You know what I got for Christmas? I got a PB&J sandwich and some gummy bears. I got an hour-long visit with my mother, and I got horrible doubts that when I came home, my best friend would have forgotten about me, and my boyfriend would have cheated on me. Please just learn to be grateful. This year I've learned that things can get drastic and extreme. I've learned to trust people, and I've learned to trust myself. I've learned that things have to get worse before they can ever get better. I've learned that you can't toy with people's emotions because karma really is a bitch. I've learned that, yes, when it comes down to it, all you really have is yourself, but it doesn't always have to be like that. I've learned that you don't need four million friends, and you don't have to change who you are for people to love you again. I've learned that it's okay to look in the mirror and know that you have a boyfriend who loves you and a best friend that would kill for you. I've learned that opening yourself up to people is okay, and that not everyone is out to get you. I have very high hopes for 2007. I have high hopes for myself and my future. Whether or not I use cocaine doesn't change any of that. I can still be a good person if I slip up a few times, but cocaine isn't everything. That's what I learned. If I had to tell the world one thing before I was able to die, I'd say that. Cocaine isn't everything. Drugs aren't everything. Partying isn't everything. It's all just temporary. Sure, it's fun. It was my fucking life this year. But it's not everything. It won't solve all your problems. It won't change whatever you're running from. It just numbs everything. It's a mask on your life, really. I'm going to party, and I'm going to have fun, but that's not all I'm going to do anymore. I'm better than that. Everyone's better than that. That's what I learned. You can't sell yourself short because you're perfect. Everyone's perfect.

Because that was last New Year's.

Because Lauren and I were the original biffles.

Because that was the first night I did coke.

Because everyone told me this could be a magazine cover.

Because Lauren and I pretty much owned WPV.

Because Adam was hott shit.

Because I was happy just laying around outside.

Because cell phone campfires in Hard Rock were fun to have.

Because meeting Shane for the first time changed everything.

Because Jake and I played dress-up in Disney stores.

Because Jake and I loved riding elevators.

Because Spyder was the worst boyfriend I've ever had, and I blame my neighbor for that.

Because Scott was my favorite gothic kid.

Because we got kicked out of church for being drug addicts.

Because this is proof that Jake and Nathan got along at one point in time.

Because I made Nathan scene.

Because I do not remember this at all.

Because I had just puked up Sour Patch Kids.

Because I learned I suck at the drums.

Because that actually hurt a bit.

Because Michelle made me black.

Because we pretty much thought we were the hottest shit in the world.

Because Nathan asked me out on Valentine's Day, and I said no.

Because we were asked to leave the store.

Because I have a fear of becoming fat.

Because we were seriously always together.

Because Nathan and I were possibly the cutest scene couple ever.

Because this is the first picture EJ and I ever took.

Because Shrek sucks.

Because we thought we had a "crew".

Because my birthday dinner with this boy kicked ass.

Because we went to parks at night just to take pictures.

Because sometimes I'm made for black and white.

Because there is nothing like going to Disney on C's with Josh.

Because homecoming dress shopping while you're intoxicated is impossible.

Because sometimes I really do think I could be famous.

Because I only took pictures in school.

Because me and Kitty were best friends.

Because we had fun in gas stations.

Because that was my first time on PCP.

Because Michelle was my other half.

Because you have to take pictures when you're driving with Shane and Kitty.

Because this was the first time I dyed Kitty's hair.

Because I am easily distracted when I smoke PCP.

Because we thought we were lost.

Because Michelle was the only sober one.

Because I swore Kitty couldn't pick me up.

Because I really liked my eye make-up that day.

Because, yes, I really do fucking eat.

Because everyone told me I could be a model if I got my teeth fixed.

Because I got to piss in OPD's bathroom.

Because I hate this picture.

Because Nathan and I were getting back together.

Because we were all so high.

Because we were so cute, and so scene.

Because Ricky smoked me out.

Because I adopted him as my little brother.

Because I always disliked Chris.

Because that's who I cheated on Nathan with right in front of him.

Because Ricky was the first boy to ever sleepover at my house.

Because I was told to be a High Times model.

Because Michelle made me a bunny for Easter.

Because I look skinny rolling down hills.

Because I'm mad at Virginia for taking Perry.

Because Shane wasn't even mad that I smoked on 420.

Because working out is funner when you have a camera.

Because I actually convinced Shane to sneak out.

Because Kitty and I were too high for Shane.

Because I love this picture so much.

Because somehow we ended up at Wal-Mart.

Because he looked like Joey Fatone.

Because that's what we did at the mall.

Because I thought he was the hottest boy ever.

Because Jared and I weren't supposed to stop being friends.

Because I loved my clavicle.

Because Barett is the biggest nerd I've ever met.

Because that night was insane.

Because that was the first time I had seen Zack since we broke up.

Because Fucker was my favorite pet of the year.

Because that's my cousin.

Because that was the first time I've been to the fair and actually remembered it.

Because we won Hoops and Flava Flav.

Because I loved that fish.

Because I thought I had a "ghetto booty".

Because my grandmother's birthday dinner absolutely sucked.

Because Sarah and I will always be close.

Because I think I'm the only one who tries to bring a hamster to church.

Because Shane and I had been dating for a whole week.

Because catching ducks is a lot harder than expected.

Because I'm "too wild" for this kid.

Because I was so ungodly skeeted.

Because I'm so young at heart.

Because I'm secretly gothic.

Because I think he is the nicest kid I have ever met.

Because I decided to do something for someone other than myself.

Because she was willing to adopt me.

Because that was the first time Michelle tried coke.

Because we were little teapots.

Because I still love this picture.

Because he likes me even when I'm drunk.

Because that's my secret identity.

Because I'm so cute sometimes.

Because I think I look like Christi in this picture.

Because I miss Alec so much.

Because that was Kitty and I's reunion.

Because that was the first time I ever smoked with Chrissy.

Because we matched.

Because that was the first night I met Ryan.

Because Sam and I smoked a lot.

Because Blake scared the fuck out of all of us that night.

Because Nick smoked me out.

Because I really was disappointed that we never dated.

Because I thought I was scene.

Because the MSI concert was amazing.

Because Panama City Beach was absolutely beautiful.

Because we were Spice Girls.

Because 7 hour car rides gave us picture time.

Because Brendan was in love with me.

Because Shane's neck will always look like a leopard when he's dating me.

Because I really do love my mom sometimes.

Because Alec gave me a house when I got kicked out.

Because smoking a lot of weed and snorting a lot of cocaine will make you crazy.

Because Brendan and I were too high.

Because I'm so boring.

Because I'm the only one who doesn't open their eyes when they kiss.

Because I am obsessed with this picture.

Because Sarah's a closet lesbian.

Because this picture makes me cry.

Because that night was amazing.

Because Kim used to be the only one who understood me.

Because I went blonde.

Because that was my bowling name.

Because I won.

Because I made him wear Hollister.

Because a lot of people tell me we're going to get married.

Because this picture reminds me of Chick.

Because timer was a bitch for this picture.

Because those were Amanda and I's Halloween costumes.

Because Jay gives me so much support in everything I do.

Because only Amanda and I can drink like fishes.

Because Ryan was a cutie.

Because Josh hung out with us even when we were hungover.

Because The Jonbenet stayed at my house.

Because me and Kirk did a lot of cocaine.

Because Shane likes making fun of my "smooshy" faces.

Because I try to be cute.

Because that was my family.

Because she was my daughter.

Because that was the last night I saw Arthur.

Because Amanda and I danced at Citywalk.

Because we were invincible.

Because Shane was pissed off at me.

Because Amanda and Kirk created "art" on my wall.

Because that was a hot day.

Because that day was hott.

Because we stayed at Homecoming for a whole 45 minutes.

Because Amanda and I were the hottest girls there.

Because Terek was my first and second period best friend.

Because Alec refuses to take pictures.

Because I really thought things would be the same.

Because Dylan will always be my older brother.

Because I was super skeeted.

Because I loved coke and these girls.

Because Lindsay was mad that she couldn't do yay.

Because Dylan has always been there for me.

Because Alec hates getting the cops called on us.

Because Lindsay's bed is amazingly comfortable.

Because Ryan is really hott.

Because Ryan promised to buy me a duck.

Because Ryan wanted to send this to Shane on his birthday.

Because Michelle's homecoming was really lame, but I looked really good.

Because Ryan picked me up from Homecoming so I could get drunk.

Because Dylan laughed at me for not knowing what a candy dispenser was.

Because we dated for all the wrong reasons.

Because I spent my Halloween with Lindsay.

Because I love getting dressed up for nothing.

Because we owned DP.

Because I was bored.

Because this is the night I met my soul sister.

Because Justin turned into an asshole.

Because Ryan was my supplier.

Because Justin wanted to make Ryan jealous.

Because Joe wanted me to take a shower in his house.

Because Marc looks like he's on meth all the time.

Because EJ doesn't make fun of me for looking like a frog.

Because we all get a little depressed sometimes.

Because I absolutely love to get drunk with EJ.

Because Miss Love and The Destroyer were back-in-action.

Because Hoe-zay and I got too high.

Because Lindsay and I were twins.

Because I kissed Danny right in front of his wanna-be girlfriend.

Because that was a really good night.

Because Zack and I partied too much.

Because I absolutely adore Eddie.

Because EJ doesn't mind me when I'm all over him and everyone else.

Because Lindsay and I were fun.

Because we drink too much.

Because I can't handle over 35 beers.

Because we're Pokemon.

Because Zack and I started hanging out again.

Because I think I look like shit when I get out of the shower.

Because Lindsay got me through withdrawal.

Because we were super skeeted.

Because I always end up looking like a frog.

Because Zack and I would have never worked out.

Because Sarah took the most amazing photo.

Because Sarah and I fell in love.

Because booty dancing on my toilet never gets old.

Because staying the night at Ryan's was an adventure.

Because we're beer bunnies.

Because we're magic.

Because I'm dangerous.

Because all Zack ever wanted was to get in my pants.

Because Shane and I finally got back together.

Because we love Christmas.

Because I got everyone in the picture.

Because I love Nathan, and I love coke coming out of my nose.

Because we practice "new age lesbianism".

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2006-08-07T09:15:08Z

Comment to be added.

AmyLove

dissappointed @ 2007-01-15T22:09:00

dissappointed @ 2007-01-15T00:29:00

dissappointed @ 2007-01-08T23:13:00

Just read this one, I love all the pictures.

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